To Be By Your Side Chapter 1 Home, sweet home. To Princess Lady Serenity, it felt like a lifetime had passed since she last felt the gravity of Earth bearing down on her. For the past five years, she, along with her team of guardians, had been living at a secret facility on the Moon, training in controlling their senshi powers with Sailors Uranus and Neptune. Training had been tough and vigorous, as was to be expected, but they had finally passed the elder soldiers' program to become full- fledged Sailor Senshi. Sometimes, Serenity still couldn't quite believe she was the new Sailor Moon. Looking down at her intricately designed transformation brooch, she opened it up and ran her fingers against the pale pink heart-shaped stone in the center: her Pink Moon Crystal. It wasn't quite as powerful as her mother's Silver Moon Crystal, but Diana, her guardian cat and ever-faithful companion, assured her it would grow stronger as she gained more experience as a soldier princess. "Serenity-sama, I can't tell you how proud of you I am," Diana, who was sitting in Serenity's lap, said, noticing her looking at the crystal. "You're finally a true soldier like your mother was before you. I know Neo-Queen Serenity and King Endymion must be extremely proud of you as well." "I can't wait to see Mama, Papa, and everybody again," Serenity admitted, shutting close the brooch and pinning it to the large bow of the sailor suit she was wearing for her homecoming. "I know they came for the occasional visit at Fort Crystal, but it just wasn't the same. I wonder how much things have changed in Crystal Tokyo since we've been gone." “I imagine quite a lot. Five years is a long time to be gone, after all.” Serenity sighed, leaning her forehead against her window, which looked down at the blue-and-green marble called Earth. It wouldn’t be long until the royal shuttle hit the planet’s atmosphere. “Maybe so, but I hope things didn’t change too much at home. I‘d hate to come back and feel like a foreigner in my own city.” “I’m sure there are some things that will always stay the same, Serenity-sama.” “Like Mama’s complete inability to ever wake up before eight o’clock without Papa physically dragging her out of bed?” Serenity joked, breaking into a fit of uncontrollable giggles. The gray cat looked like she was about join her, but Diana managed to stifle her laughter at the last minute. “Now, Serenity- sama, that’s not a very nice thing to say about your mother,” she lectured, clearing her throat, “even if there is some truth to it.” “Sorry.” Her laughter dying down, Serenity stood up and pulled her bunny-shaped backpack down from the cargo bin above her seat. She was getting hungry, but unfortunately it looked like she had already eaten all the candy bars she had packed for the trip home. Sighing, she was about to zip the bag back up and put it away when something fell out of it with a soft, tinkling noise and rolled underneath Vesta’s seat in front of her. “Hey, Vesta, would you mind getting that for me?” Serenity asked after an unsuccessful bid to reach it. Not even a cat could fit under underneath the low-lying seats, so she couldn't ask Diana to pull it out. “What?” “My bell. It fell underneath your seat, and I can‘t reach it.” “Lemmee see…” Looking under her seat, Vesta felt around until she found it. “Here you go,” she said, handing the bell back to a grateful Serenity. “Thanks, Vesta!” Serenity said, clutching the small bell to her chest. “I don’t know what I would have done if I had lost it. You know how much it means to me.” “Is that the bell Priest Helios-sama gave you when you traveled to the past?” Ceres, who was sitting next to Vesta, asked, turning around in her seat to face her princess. Nodding, Serenity held it up and gave it a little ring. The tone it gave out was as beautiful and as clear as a bird’s song. Luckily, it had been undamaged from the fall. “This bell is my most prized possession,” she confessed, causing Ceres to let out a worried sigh. “I take it with me everywhere.” “Oh, Serenity-sama, please don’t tell me you are still in love with Helios-sama.” Serenity felt her cheeks warm. “Well, what if I am? Is that so horrible?” “It is when you are only setting yourself up for disappointment,” Ceres said. “You do remember that Helios-sama is bound to Elysion and therefore cannot stay in our world for long periods of time without serious consequence, don‘t you? “Of course I do.” If only she could forget. It had absolutely devastated her when she returned to 30th century Crystal Tokyo and learned that due to his duty as the priest of Elysion, Helios was not allowed to live in the human realm. He was needed in Elysion to watch over the dreams of dreamers, and could only visit the human realm for short periods of time before his power gave out. Serenity had hoped that when she left for her senshi training, the distance might help lessen her feelings for him. Helios had asked her to try to forget him, but her feelings had only grown deeper as the years passed and she developed into a young woman. “If you know the truth, then why do you insist on holding onto this childhood crush of yours?” Ceres asked. “You are the crown princess of Crystal Tokyo. You’re funny, smart, and one of the most beautiful women in the kingdom. You could have your pick of handsome and available suitors, yet you stubbornly hold onto the dream of a man who will never be yours. I don‘t understand it.” “That’s because you’ve never been in love, Ceres,” Serenity said. “Whenever you do fall in love, you’ll finally understand my feelings for Helios. It‘s just not that easy to fall out of love with somebody, no matter how much you know it is wrong.” “Well, promise me you will at least try to keep an open mind during your birthday ball next week. I‘m sure there will be plenty of cute, *available* men attending who would love the chance to become your suitor.” “Yes, *okaa-san*.” However, as soon as Ceres turned back around and settled into her seat, Serenity pulled down her lower eyelid and childishly stuck out her tongue. “Serenity-sama, Ceres only has your best interests at heart,” Diana said in a soft voice. “She just doesn’t want to see you get hurt.” Serenity sighed, knowing that Diana was right. “Yeah, I know…” An hour later, the voice of Uranus, who was piloting the shuttle, crackled over the speakers. “This is Uranus. We will be re-entering Earth’s atmosphere in approximately fifteen minutes. All passengers, please put on your suits and buckle your seatbelts. This will be a bumpy ride. I repeat: All passengers, suit up and buckle up for re-entry. Thank you.” Re-entry was always Serenity’s least favorite part of space travel, and, judging by the slightly greenish pallor of Pallas’ face as they pulled on their space suits, she was not alone in the feeling. “Pallas feels like she’s going to throw up,” Pallas mumbled from behind her hand, trying to hold back her nausea. “Well, if you must, at least put on your helmet first,” Ceres said, handing Pallas the blue helmet that matched her space suit before putting on her yellow one. “I do not want vomit floating around in the cabin. Reporters are bound to be covering our return, and I do not want to be covered in puke when I get my picture taken.” “That goes double for me,” Vesta agreed. “Triple for me,” Juno piped in. “Just try to think of something more pleasant, Pallas,” Serenity advised, patting the blue-haired senshi’s shoulder. “That’s what I always do.” Pallas managed to give her a weak smile. “Thanks, Serenity- sama. Pallas will try.” Fifteen minutes later, right on schedule, the shuttle broke through the Earth’s atmosphere. Serenity tightly clutched a now- human Diana’s hand, closed her eyes, and thought of the awaiting feast she was certain Sailor Jupiter had prepared in honor of their homecoming. It only blocked some of the quaking sensation of re- entry, but it was enough to keep her nausea in check. “Are you okay, Serenity-sama?” Diana asked once the worst was over. Serenity loosened her grip on Diana’s hand and nodded. “I’m fine, Diana,” she assured her guardian. “Just wishing we could have used Sailor Teleport to return home instead of flying. I guess with all our luggage, though, that was kind of impossible. ” Looking across the aisle at Pallas, she asked, “What about you, Pallas? How are you doing?” With a somewhat shaky hand, Pallas gave Serenity the thumbs -up sign. “Good.” Once they were back in the Earth’s atmosphere, it did not take long at all for Uranus to make a smooth landing at Crystal Tokyo Space Center. Looking out her window as the shuttle rolled to a stop, Serenity saw a crowd of people waiting for them at the end of the runway, among them her parents and the rest of the Sailor Senshi. Her heart leapt for joy at seeing them again, and, after taking off her space suit, Serenity was the first to disembark from the shuttle. Not caring the least about the three dozen or so reporters, photographers, and cameramen covering the event, Serenity ran over to her parents and embraced them in a three-way hug. “Mama, Papa…” she said, kissing them both on the cheek. “I’m home.” ***** Among the crowd gathered to welcome the princess and her guardian soldiers home was the priest of Elysion, Helios. It was not often that Helios left Elysion to journey to the surface of the planet, but, like everybody else, he was anxious to see Serenity again after her long absence due to her training. Five years. It seemed like only yesterday that his “little maiden” -- as he affectionately called her -- had told him of her most treasured dream of becoming Sailor Moon. Now, that dream had come true, and she was finally a true lady, as beautiful and strong as her idolized mother. Not wanting to intrude on the family reunion, Helios kept mostly to the background, blending in among the media, who had snapped into action the second the shuttle landed. He smiled, however, watching Serenity excitedly show her parents and the elder Sailor Soldiers her new transformation brooch. Even though she was turning eighteen in a little over a week, she still had a aura of child-like innocence to her that was very refreshing. Once she had finished saying hello to everybody else, Serenity finally noticed Helios. If possible, her luminous smile brightened even more when she saw him, and she ran over, practically knocking him over with the force of her hug. “Helios, you came!” she said. “Of course I did, little maiden,” he replied, resisting every urge in his body to kiss her right then and there in front of everybody. Until that moment, he hadn’t realized just how much he had missed her. Holding Serenity in his arms, it felt like a piece of his heart had been returned to him, making him whole again. “Did you really think I would miss your homecoming?” Serenity rolled her wine-colored eyes. “Please, I’m not so little anymore. You’re as bad as my parents, still calling me Small Lady even though I‘m almost an adult.” “Forgive me, *maiden*,” Helios corrected, reluctantly releasing her from his embrace when he noticed a couple of photographers taking pictures of them. “I misspoke.” She smiled. “Better.” “You really have grown, though, haven’t you?” The last time he had seen the princess, Serenity had been on the threshold of adolescence, only just beginning to develop the womanly figure she now possessed. She was also taller than Helios remembered; as Helios was a man of short stature, they were now almost the same height. He only had about an inch or two on her, though had she been wearing high heels, Serenity would have surely towered over him. “I’m taller than Mama now,” Serenity announced proudly. “Though I still need to grow a few more inches to catch up with Jupiter.” “I think your height is fine just the way it is, maiden,” Helios assured her. “I suppose so. At least people can’t call me a squirt or a runt anymore.” The thought seemed to cheer her up. By that time, the crowd had begun to thin out some. A press conference had been scheduled to allow the reporters to ask the new Sailor Team questions about their training and homecoming, so the media people were packing up their things and heading to the Crystal Palace to set up. Soon, only the royal family, the guardian cats, the Sailor Senshi, and Helios were left on the tarmac. “Will you stay for the press conference, Helios?” Serenity asked as they too began to leave for the palace. “Jupiter planned a small reception for afterward, and I would love it if you could come.” “Thank you for inviting me, but I’m afraid I can’t,” Helios replied regretfully. He wanted to stay more than anything, but he could already feel his powers weakening. It had become more and more difficult as of late for him to stay even a few hours in the human realm, and he had already spent nearly half the day in audience with the king. “I need to return to Elysion soon to begin evening prayers.” “Oh.” She sighed, kicking a loose piece of gravel with her foot. “Right, I forgot.” “We’ll see each other again soon, though,” he reminded her. “Your mother’s and your birthday celebration is being held in Elysion this year.” Serenity’s momentary frown reverted back to its original smile. “Really? We‘re going to Elysion for my birthday?” she asked, sounding very much like a little girl who had just been told she was going to Disneyland. Helios laughed. “I thought you already knew.” “No, nobody told me,” she said with a shake of her head. “I thought the celebration would be held in Crystal Tokyo like usual.” “The celebration is partly why I came today,” Helios admitted, dying to divulge the surprise he had planned for her birthday, a secret he had been keeping from her for almost five years. “Of course, I wanted to see your homecoming, but the king also wanted to go over some last minute arrangements with me. I’m sorry if I ruined the surprise. Nobody told me it was supposed to be a secret.” “It’s okay. I’m glad I know. Now I‘m looking even more forward to my birthday!” “I’m sure it will be your best ever, maiden.” Once they reached the palace, it was about time for Helios to leave for Elysion. King Endymion and Neo-Queen Serenity, echoing their daughter’s invitation, urged him to stay for the homecoming celebration, but Helios knew he had only a short amount of time left before his powers were depleted. After bidding goodbye to the king, queen, and other senshi, who were all heading to the press room where the press conference was to take place, Helios turned in the opposite direction, somewhat surprised when he heard another set of footsteps following him. “Helios!” “Maiden, what are you doing here?” he asked when he turned around and saw Serenity jogging to catch up with him. “Shouldn’t you be heading to the press conference with the others? You don’t want to be late.” “I’m the crown princess of Crystal Tokyo and the leader of the Sailor Quartet; they won’t start without me,” Serenity said with a dismissive wave of her hand. “I just wanted to thank you for coming to see my homecoming. It really meant a lot to me that you came.” Helios smiled. “I wouldn’t have missed it for the world, my maiden. I’m so proud of all you have accomplished over the past five years. I’m sure you will be a wonderful Sailor Moon, just like your mother.” “I hope so. Mama’s boots will be hard to fill.” “If anybody can do it, I’m sure you can.” A faint blush crossed Serenity‘s cheeks at the compliment. “Are you certain you can’t stay a little while longer, Helios?” she asked. “The feast is going to be fantastic. Jupiter says she oversaw everything, from the roasted duck to the choice of wine.” “I wish I could, but my powers are waning rapidly. I really do need to return to Elysion as soon as possible.” Sighing, Serenity buried her face in his shoulder and embraced him tightly, as if physically trying to bind him to her so that he couldn’t leave. “I hate this,” she said, her voice muffled and strained, as if she was trying her best not to cry. “I absolutely hate it. It always feels like we’re saying good-bye.” “Maiden…” “I know what you’re going to say,” Serenity said, “and I know you’re right. I know I promised you before I left that I would try to get over you, that I would find somebody else to love, somebody who could stay by my side always, but I couldn’t, Helios. I just couldn’t!” Smiling, Helios wrapped his arms around Serenity and kissed the top of her head. “I’m glad, my maiden,” he said. A part of him had worried she had taken his words to heart, and his sacrifice would be for nothing. “You have no idea how happy I am to hear that.” “You are?” Serenity looked up, wiping away a few wayward tears with her hand. “You aren’t mad?” “Mad? Why would I be mad?” “Ceres and Diana keep telling me that I should give up on you, that I’m just setting myself up for heartbreak and sorrow if I continue loving you like I do. It‘s the same thing you told me before I left for Fort Crystal to train.” “Do you believe that’s true?” he asked, half-afraid to hear the answer. To his relief, Serenity shook her head. “No, I don’t,” she declared. “I know it’s impossible for you to remain here with me in Crystal Tokyo, but I would rather have you only some of the time, than to never see you again. That would truly break my heart. I just wish…” “What?” “No, I won’t say it.” She smiled sadly and reached up to caress his cheek. “To put it into words would make me want it too much, and I know it’s an impossible dream.” “There is no such thing as an impossible dream,” Helios said. “Even the impossible can become possible if the wish is strong enough.” “Helios, I’m not a little kid anymore. I know the world doesn’t work like that, as much as I wish it did.” “You certainly have grown up, haven’t you?” Helios brushed a strand of pink hair out of her eyes and sighed. “Maybe you are right, but never stop believing in that dream, my maiden. No matter how impossible it seems at the moment, I promise you that one day it will come true.” For a moment, Serenity’s eyes lit up at his promise, but then she turned around, wrapping her arms around herself in a hug. “Please, don’t say things like that,” she begged, her voice once again strained. “Don’t set me up for disappointment. Ceres and Diana were right about one thing; I can’t keep thinking that we’ll get our happy ending as long as we love each other enough. I love you, Helios, and I’ll keep loving you until the day I die, but I cannot allow myself to hope for more than what we have now. I just have to learn to be satisfied with that.” “Maiden…” Helios hated hearing her sound so pessimistic, so different from the little girl he remembered, the one who believed all dreams were possible to achieve. He longed to take her in his arms and tell her that he had meant every word, that he was doing everything possible to make her unspoken dream a reality, but King Endymion had sworn him to secrecy, not wanting his daughter to get her hopes up until they had succeeded. Although things had been going well so far, what they were ultimately planning to do had never been done before, and the risks were unknown. Reminded of that fact, Helios looked down at his hands, unsurprised to see them fading away. He was at his limit; he could not stay in the human realm for any longer. Glad that Serenity had turned away before she could see, Helios came up behind her and kissed the back of her head. “Maiden, I must leave now,” he said, “but, please, no matter what, continue believing in your cherished dream. Good-bye.” With those final words, Helios used the rest of his remaining power to teleport back to Elysion. ***** “I am stuffed!” The second Serenity returned to her room after dinner, she plopped down on her canopy bed, her stomach full and her spirits high, despite Helios‘ absence. Jupiter had truly outdone herself for their homecoming feast; Serenity couldn’t remember the last time she ate so much in one sitting. Of course, after five years of mostly surviving on meals consisting of food-shaped cardboard, even her mother’s notoriously bad cooking probably would have tasted like a little piece of heaven. It truly was wonderful to finally be back home, although Serenity had to admit a part of her felt a bit out of place. She wondered if her feelings weren’t all too different from the way convicts felt after being released from prison after serving a long sentence. While she lived and trained on the Moon, it was easy to imagine that time had stopped somehow, but life had continued on Earth as always, bringing about new trends, new technology, new bands, television shows, and movies… She had quite a bit to catch up on. Even Helios had changed from the boy she had remembered. The inhabitants of Elysion were blessed with eternal youth, but he had seemed older somehow, more…adult. She couldn’t quite put her finger on what exactly had been different about him, though. Was he taller? She couldn’t tell, due to her own spike in height, which skewed her perception. Or maybe it was his voice? It was still beautiful and ethereal, but she thought she sensed a new richness to it, as if it had deepened slightly. After managing to sit back up, Serenity walked over to her walk-in closet and sighed. While the closet used to be filled to the brim with fabulous designer clothes, only two formal dresses and a small selection of casual outfits hung on the hangers. She had long outgrown her old wardrobe, which her parents had most likely donated to charity after she left. She would definitely need to do some shopping before her birthday trip to Elysion. Thinking of her birthday celebration, Serenity smiled. She couldn’t wait to see Elysion -- and, more importantly, Helios -- again. Their reunion after her landing had been far too short for Serenity’s taste and slightly soured by the heavy conversation. She had wanted to keep things light and cheery, not to be reminded of the inherent hopelessness of their situation. If only she could believe Helios when he said that one day her dream would come true. He seemed so certain of it, somehow, but he, better than anybody, had to know a dream like hers could never become reality, no matter how much she wished it so. Helios was the priest of Elysion, and nothing could ever change that fact. “Serenity-sama, what are you doing?” Startled from her thoughts, Serenity jumped at the sound of her guardian cat’s voice. “Diana, don’t scare me like that! You nearly gave me a heart attack.” “Sorry,” Diana apologized, hopping on Serenity’s slightly rumpled bed. “You just had a funny look on your face, like you were daydreaming.” “Oh, I-I did?” To hide her embarrassment, Serenity turned back around to close the door to the closet. “You were thinking about *him* again, weren’t you?” There was no hiding anything from Diana. Sometimes Serenity felt as if Diana knew her better than she even knew herself. “Maybe,” Serenity said coyly. Diana shook her head. “Oh, Serenity-sama, didn’t you hear a word Ceres said earlier on the shuttle?” “You mean about how Helios is the priest of Elysion and he will never be able to marry me because of his duty? I believe the conversation vaguely rings a few bells.” Diana was not amused. “This situation is hardly something to joke about.” “Oh, lighten up, Diana!” “I’m just saying that I think you should heed Ceres’ advice,” the cat said. “You’re setting yourself up for heartbreak.” Not wanting to hear any more on the subject, Serenity abruptly stood back up. “I think I’m going to take a bath,” she announced, effectively ending the unpleasant conversation. “Serenity-sama…” Ignoring her well-meaning guardian cat, Serenity headed to her adjoining bathroom and began drawing herself a bath. Nobody understands my feelings, she thought mournfully as she undressed and submerged herself in the hot, bubbly water, lightly scented with lavender. Nobody seemed to understand that what she felt for Helios was real, and not some silly schoolgirl crush. In her mind, Serenity knew what Diana and Ceres were saying was true, but her heart refused to listen. Her mother had told her once when she was a little girl to always follow her heart, and even though she was old enough now to realize that wasn’t always the best course of action, her mother’s words were difficult to forget, especially when she was certain that she would never feel the same about another man. For her, it was Helios. It would always be Helios, even if they could never truly be together the way she wanted. “Maybe I’ll just be a spinster for the rest of my life,” Serenity said aloud to nobody in particular. “Who says I even have to get married? I can be perfectly happy loving Helios from afar…” Oh, who was she kidding? She wanted to get married and have a family. That had been a dream of hers for as long as Serenity could remember: to find her Prince Charming and live happily ever after, just like the fairy tales her father used to read to her as a child. It was just her bad luck that the Prince Charming of her dreams happened to be the priest of Elysion. With a heavy sigh, Serenity climbed out of the tub and dried herself off. Before she pulled on her nightgown and robe, however, she took the opportunity to admire her nude body in the mirror. Long, toned legs, a small waist, and soft, round breasts -- she had the type of body men lusted after and other women hated her for. Ceres had been right about one thing: with her looks, she could have her pick of suitors, but there was only one man she wanted. After getting dressed and brushing her teeth, Serenity returned to her bedroom to find that Diana had already fallen asleep, curled up in a fuzzy gray ball at the foot of Serenity’s bed where she normally slept. They had both had a big day, so, as quietly as she could, Serenity got in bed and snuggled under the covers, dreaming a dream that would never come true. ***** Back in Elysion, Helios had finished saying his evening prayers in front of the golden prayer tower. Some of his strength had returned to him, restored by the power of people’s dreams, but he still felt quite weak. Eos and Aurora, his faithful shrine maidens, rushed to his side as he nearly collapsed upon standing, each of them grabbing one of his arms and helping him to walk over to a nearby bench. “Thank you,” he said to them as he sat down, grateful for the chance to rest. “Helios-sama, you should not have spent so much time in the human realm today,” Aurora lightly scolded him, sitting down beside him on the bench and placing two fingers on the inside of his wrist in order to check his pulse. “You know your powers are not as strong as they once were.” “But today was my maiden’s homecoming, Aurora. I could not miss it for the world.” Thinking of his beloved maiden, Helios could not help but smile. No matter how difficult things got for him over the next week leading to Serenity‘s birthday, he knew that if the king succeeded, it would all be worth it in the end. “Where is Hyperion?” he asked, referring to the young boy they had taken in almost five years ago. “Training in the Crystal Forest, sir,” Eos answered. “His powers are certainly growing stronger as of late.” “Do you think he will be ready in time?” She frowned. “It is hard to say. Like I said, his powers are strengthening, but he still has some difficulty controlling them. It may be best to delay the completion of the transfer, at least for a few more months.” Helios shook his head. “No, it has to be next week,” he insisted. “It has to be done by the princess’s birthday.” “Helios-sama, I understand how much you want to be with Serenity-sama, but you can’t rush things,” Eos said. “It’s not good for you, or for Hyperion.” Aurora nodded her agreement. “Eos is right. This is the first time something like this has ever been attempted, so you have to be careful and take things slowly. We aren’t even sure it will work.” “It will work.” Helios had to keep believing that, had to keep telling himself that. “It has to.” Feeling a bit stronger, he stood back up. “You said Hyperion was training in the forest? Perhaps I can help him learn to control his powers better.” “Helios-sama, no,” Aurora said, reaching out for his arm. “Not tonight. You are far too weak as it is.” “I’m fine, Aurora. I can handle it.” “No, you can’t.” Her voice was firm and full of authority. “You need to go to bed and get some much needed rest. Eos and I will go to the forest in your stead and oversee Hyperion’s training.” “But --” “No ‘but’s. Do you want to exhaust what is left of your remaining power before the king even has the chance to complete the transfer? What good will that do anybody?” Helios sighed, knowing that Aurora was right. As he was now, he could not risk expending his power unnecessarily. It was too dangerous, for himself and for Elysion. Until the transfer was complete, he was still the priest of Elysion, and his prayers and powers, as weak as they were, were still needed to protect the dream world from the darkness of nightmares. “Okay, I will try to get some sleep,” he promised. “Just… help prepare Hyperion for what is to come. Please, he is my only hope.” “We will, Helios-sama.” DISCLAIMER: Sailor Moon is the property of Naoko Takeuchi. AUTHOR'S NOTES: Any comments or criticisms can be sent to me at ElysionDream@aol.com. Special thanks to my editor Starsea.