She's been twisted inside out, raked over the coals, and left to bleed out in solitude.
That's the only way she can accurately describe the pain. After doing so much for someone, she's been dropped. She hasn't even been thrown away in anger or sadly set aside. She's fallen from his eyes like something he doesn't care about. Because he doesn't care about her.
It's apathy that kills.
When it’s over, she always walks to Hikawa Jinja to cry on the shoulder of the one woman who won't allow herself to understand that pain. The irony isn’t lost on her.